A fear, a promise

Updated Monday April 20,2009
I really had to sit back and think things through this weekend.
Kevin had an interview this last week, for a company that he REALLY wants to work for. The news however was not what we expected. They feel that he could be an asset to the company, but are looking for people with more Pharmaceutical experience right now. His is minimal and at least 7 years old. The pharmacy industry has changed since I was a tech and he was the geek I called to fix my computer problems.
I could barely breath on Friday afternoon as I was trying to continue with my day, Benjamin was sick, we had a birthday party to help get ready for. I had a school project to work on.
I just could not seem to catch my breath, and when I felt like I could I wanted to start crying.
It has been 6 long months, Kevin was let go from his company. We have made it through Christmas, birthdays, Easter. I knew that they funds would start running out soon. That thought scared me more than anything. I do not want to loose what I have. I just kept asking
God WHY??
I got an answer, that to be honest I wasn't expecting, as I was leaving the doctors office that afternoon. God showed me his promise by sharing with me the biggest rainbow I had ever seen. It wasnt one on those half rainbows or the super thin ones that stretched. It was a BIG FAT Rainbow. Thick.
And staring me in my rear view mirror as I drove down the highway.
I truly began to cry then as I pointed the rainbow out to Benjamin.
"Look, bubba, its a Rainbow, that is God promise to us. That he will never leave us or forget about us and his is reminding us right now."

Thank you God for your promises, I am sorry that I am sometimes a doubter of your word and your promise to me and my family. I will be working on that.
Please continue to care for my family. Put your protective hand over us, and lead Kevin in the right direction, as he leads us as well.
Amen