The things I have been missing

I have been missing a few many things these months that I have joined the workforce. And today it has hit me like a ton of bricks. Kevin is off at a meeting so it is me and the boys. I miss so many of the little things, that I took advantage of never being any different than they were.
But now they will never be the same.
I know change is good, and called for, but on days like today.
It does not ease my hearts sorrows, though they are petty and mild.
I miss the boys waking me up in the morning by snuggling with me.
I miss the boys watching cartoons with me in the morning. Patric linking his arm in mine, and Benjamin resting in my arms.
I miss the conversations we would have about what they had seen on tv or on one of their many adventures.
I miss taking them to the park in the middle of the day for a play date.
I miss them coming in just to say hi and give me a hug in the middle of their playing outside.
I miss picking them up from school and seeing the excitement of the day on their faces.
I miss Benjamin being so ready to go pick up Patric from school that he would as at every hour if it was time to pick up is brother.
I miss them. Everything about them, more than I thought possible.
I am so glad when I come home to see thier smiling faces, dirty from the day of playing.
I am the luckiest mom in the world to have 2 beautiful boys.